Happy birthday to me… happy birthday to me!
My birthday really snuck up on me this year. I guess that’s what happens when you get older. Sigh…
33 has been a pretty good year. Well actually, it was difficult. 33 was the year I got help for my anxiety ‘issue.’ It’s kind of funny, because I am ending out 33 doing not quite so well, but during this year I’ve learned so many things about how to maintain my sanity. Most importantly I learned that I don’t have to feel like something terrible is about to happen all of the time.
On the bright side, I sleep now! And I very rarely have nightmares. I did have a bout of sleep paralysis/wake-up screaming two nights ago, but as a whole, my sleep is much better. However, my bouts of nightmares really make me feel like a crazy person. There is no nice way to put it. They are terrifying and the feelings linger for days. Actually, when I think of it, a lot of my intrusive thoughts as well as my dreams leave me feeling like, “a good/normal person wouldn’t have these thoughts. There is something wrong with me.” It’s not a good feeling to have, on top of the effect of the imagery and content of my dreams and intrusive thoughts. I feel embarrassed sharing this, but I know there is probably at least one other person out there who feels the same way!
My physical health is much better. I’m running 10k on a regular basis and planning on training for 15! On the downside, I’m finding that my mental health maintenance is lacking… I’ve really let it slip and it’s showing. My body images has also been not so good – this is a thing I still don’t feel I have a good grasp on. But as a whole, I am doing much better.
Life is full of highs and lows and lots of stuff in between. It’s the “in between” times that I have a hard time with, and summer is always one of those times for me. Things drag along a little more slowly, which I should enjoy, but I thrive off of the adrenaline rush of being busy (or of crisis). I’m trying… really trying to be ok with life just chugging a long.
Anyway, enough about me…
I decided to celebrate, I’d have a sale, and it’s going to be my BIGGEST sale of the year. Take 20% off all lingerie & sewing patterns with the coupon code HappyBirthday 20. Offer expires Monday July 3 at midnight!
I thought this might be a good time for a sale since it’s a long weekend for many of us, with Canada Day and July 4th in the US. This is a great opportunity to pick up a couple sewing patterns and work through my new swimsuit tutorials *wink wink*
And YES! I ate that giant brownie.
Enjoy!
4 Comments
Chris Griffin
June 30, 2017 at 8:53 pmHappy Birthday!!!
Mental health isn’t easy, and that you’re self-aware enough to recognize that. It’s a good thing. It’s hard to fix what we can’t accept as real.
I’m sorry about your nightmares. (Hugs) Sometimes bad things are hard to let go of.
Most importantly, I hope you enjoyed the Heck out of that brownie. I love your pattern and style!
Jo Ann Riddle
July 1, 2017 at 2:08 amHappy Birthday! And thanks for gifting us? I love your patterns and your stories. Recognizing how much anxiety was ordering my life (and still can) was really eye opening to me. I too am familiar with the “impending doom” feeling☹️ Sewing is a huge stress reliever for me and if I’m struggling with a project (wedding dress or custom bra) I love to pull out one of your patterns and create something I know will be beautiful?
donna
July 1, 2017 at 4:49 pmHappy Birthday! I love your patterns and gorgeous photos. You’re so talented! I’m sorry to hear that year 33 was difficult, but it sounds to me like you’re doing everything right in terms of self care. And your honesty could really help someone else who is going through a similar struggle. Well done, you! Have some chocolate cake and be good to yourself. Cheers!
Hannah
July 2, 2017 at 10:11 pmThank you for sharing! You seem like such a bright, colorful, happy person that we often forget that so many people are suffering. Sending love and prayers your way. Xoxo
And happy birthday!