If you follow me on Instagram you will have already heard the news: I’m trying out that having a baby thing again. I am currently just entering 14 weeks of pregnancy, and onto my second trimester, and am due October 15. After having a miscarriage in September, pregnancy has taken on a whole new level of scary (and excitement!). That being said, everything this time around feels incredibly different, but there is always that nagging thought in the back of your head, ‘what if it happens this time too.’ However, after hearing that wonderful little heartbeat several times, and seeing him or her wriggle and squirm and hiccup on the ultrasound on three different occasions, I’m feeling pretty safe and sound.
My first pregnancy was a bit of a surprise. As some of you may remember, I was pretty on the fence about having kids, and didn’t have that drive that a lot of future mom’s and dad’s seem to have. I feel pretty fulfilled in my life, with my business and my marriage and my animals. Dan always knew kids were something he wanted, which always worried me because it didn’t seem that cut and dry to me. I bring this up, because I know there were a lot of you who commented that you had the same feelings. Even after I lost my first baby, I felt like if it never happened again, I would be ok. People are so much more complex than our drive to procreate. However, I can say that as someone who never imagined herself as a mother, growing a little person feels pretty amazing (once you get over the initial fear and occasional queasiness)! A lot of my initial fears and apprehensions about pregnancy, birth, and taking care of the baby went away once I got pregnant. I blame it on the hormones, but this has definitely been my experience. Everything feels like it will just be ok somehow. My husband, on the other hand, is a little more nervous.
The last few months have been weird (but exciting!). It’s weird doing pregnancy twice in such a short period of time, telling family and friends that you are once again pregnant. It’s weird to have a “do-over.” I felt very detached in the beginning but over the last few weeks I’ve been able to “enjoy” pregnancy. So far, everything seems to be going just right (and I have the belly to show for it too).
Yesterday, I decided I’d let myself finally indulge a bit, and sewed some baby clothes. I bought the patterns from Brindille & Twig on Etsy. They were so fast and easy to sew, I think I have a new addiction. I am anxiously awaiting Mid-May to find out the sex of the baby so I can sew a few more things. Babies are a great reason to get your craft on!
I wanted to share this news with you because I had so many people reach out to me after I had written about my miscarriage. It felt so reassuring to hear your stories, and now I am glad to continue on with mine!
22 Comments
Carly Foster
April 13, 2014 at 12:52 pmCongratulations Sarah! Such happy news! Can't wait to see some bump pictures, I love seeing bump pictures, it's such a magical thing to see a woman growing a tiny person in her tummy 🙂 best wishes for the rest of your pregnancy x
Sally Williams
April 13, 2014 at 1:13 pmCongratulations! I'm so happy for you both x
Susanna Mollah
April 13, 2014 at 2:13 pmCongratulations Sarah, I hope your pregnancy goes well. I bet you'd be able to sew up some lovely baby clothes. Best wishes, stay strong xx
Evie
April 13, 2014 at 3:46 pmCongratulations and best of luck to you! Those clothes are adorable!
rachel red lips
April 13, 2014 at 4:51 pmcongrats!!
Diana Nuland van
April 13, 2014 at 5:22 pmI'm sooooo happy for you both! 😀
I was hoping for this message, congratulations!
Norma
April 13, 2014 at 6:24 pmI am so happy for you and Dan! Congratulations!
gingermakes
April 13, 2014 at 6:30 pmCongratulations, Sarah! 🙂
girliefrank
April 13, 2014 at 7:31 pmCongratulations to you all. May your pregnancy be smooth and joyful. So pleased for you!
Angela W.
craftylittlebugger
April 13, 2014 at 8:53 pmCongratulations to the both of you! Such lovely news. Those little onesies are gorgeous too, I love the fox print one.
Julia
April 14, 2014 at 1:03 amCongratulations! Best of luck to you and your growing family.
SimpleFibreLife
April 14, 2014 at 8:39 amThank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life. Congratulations!
lazylinchen
April 14, 2014 at 9:07 amWow, that's great news! Congratulations!
Brandy Totten
April 14, 2014 at 12:39 pmCongratulations! I am so happy for you!
Anonymous
April 14, 2014 at 2:59 pmCongrats! And thanks for sharing your complex feelings regarding pregnancy. I can completely relate and it is very reassuring to hear similar thoughts from someone else. Am sure all will go well for you.
Anonymous
April 15, 2014 at 12:38 pmCongratulations Sarah, such fantastic news! The baby clothes look adorable too 🙂 Although I could never see myself having children, there was a lot of encouragement from my husband and I'm now due on 12th September 🙂 Funny what the hormones do to you – I seem to have developed such a strong maternal instinct after never having really felt like I wanted children before! So happy for you, please keep us posted, I'm sure everything will work out just fine! Jill
Windie Gardie
April 15, 2014 at 3:40 pmI'm so happy that you're trying again! Congratulations 🙂 Those onesies <3
Pretty Florals
April 15, 2014 at 4:33 pmCongratulations! That's wonderful news. My sister in law is pregnant with the little girl due in July. I plan to sew her some baby clothes and these little baby grows are just adorable 🙂
http://prettyflorals.co.uk
Michelle
April 16, 2014 at 6:20 pmCONGRATULATIONS! I'm so happy to hear that you are doing well and moving right along into your second trimester. The onsies are completely perfect and absolutely adorable!
Rosalinda loza
April 21, 2014 at 3:40 amCongrats I'm so happy to hear you've tried again!
Gem Smith
April 25, 2014 at 4:43 pmAwww wow I'm so so happy for you! Congratulations!
Amy Alan
May 1, 2014 at 11:28 pmI am so so SO happy for you! It's absolutely wonderful!